He's upset that I "wrote it all down on the internet". In the moment he wasn't so sure the grass was greener on the other side of the fence. That's why he threw me under the bus and said I lied. He wasn't sure. He stayed with her because he wasn't sure.

Since that time he has creditors calling so much that he's not even answering his phone much and he is looking for a second job. She gave $40 to her daughter for gas last week and left them with no money for the week. He couldn't afford to pay me. He's all full of apologies. He'll get the money to me.

He's not sure. He's not so sure the grass is greener on the other side. My side.

It's an insult and a put down. The grass is very green on my side. He could be living a good life with me. Somewhat finacially secure. In a loving, passionate, affectionate relationship. Partners in life for life. It's not like he would have in a cold environment. Quite the opposite. Life wouldn't be better just for the money. It just would have been better all the way around. Not to mention, I haunt his soul as much as he haunts mine. He can't forget either.

He reaps what he sows. He'll continue the downward spiral as long as he continues living a lie.