Dana has been emailing me. Very generic stuff with a few "wish things were different" comments thrown in. It's all good. I now know it's not him I had to fear. I finally wrote him an email yesterday that gave him the answers he's been looking for. The exact reasons why things started to go bad and kept going from there. He wrote back that he had a better understanding. Apologized and thanked me for the email. I'm sure there are more things floating around in his head but some things are just not meant to ever be answered.
He's actually very lucky. I was never given any reasons. I was never told exactly what I did wrong or what I didn't do. I was never afforded that luxury. I have just been going through life with a head full of questions that have no answers.
I'm going back to DC this weekend. I'll see Muse and of course spend some time with my Best Bud. I think I will be seeing a couple of museums and I'll be spending some time in the beautiful Baltimore Inner Harbor.
I'm broke and really can't afford this trip but the plane ticket is paid for so I'll just have to take it easy on the spending while I am there. Last night was the first time in 3 and a half years that I woke up in the night with my mind racing about finances. I need to regroup and redo my budget. I know it's probably not as bad I'm thinking I have just let it all get too cluttered.
I'm supposed to go line dancing tonight with Lee. I'm really not up for it because I need to pack and get some laundry done but she needs me now. I'll manange those things when I get home. Her and Tim have split up but are talking and trying to see if they can work things out. I just don't know. There are too many intricacies to be worked through. He really fucked up and fucked up with a totally wrong person. If it were just a case of him fooling around and them overcoming trust issues they may be able to survive but this is soo much more. He messed with her sis in law. Keeping it in the family isn't a good thing. Trust me on that one.
Earl will be "housesitting" again this weekend. Should I drop a hint that it would be nice to get the yard raked?
5 comments:
yeah the in the family thing is almost like a nuclear bomb going off in your relationship - I mean it's hard enough dealing with it between the two of you and now you bring in the whole family - very difficult
You are a good friend honey. Give Musey a squeeze for me, and enjoy your time in DC.
Enjoy your trip! That's the best way I know to clear cobwebs out of your head and come back more energized.
And by all means, have him rake the yard!
hope you had a good weekend honey!
hi honey. just catching back up with ya.
have a good weekend away. sounds like a fun time is planned!
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