Phew, what a weekend

Earl is home. He drove through blizzard like conditions on Thursday and made it to his friend Ray's by 9pm. It was a very long haul. He came over on Sat to bring some things that he is storing.

I was so happy to see him but had to remain guarded. He is still with her afterall. He hugged me tight and for a long time. Whispered in my hair and neck how much he missed me and how glad he is to be back.

He had called several times during the drive back. He called a couple of times on Friday. He wanted to come over Friday night but I wasn't sure my driveway would be plowed in time for him bring the U-haul trailor up. I suggested Sat instead. He reluctantly agreed and told me he couldn't wait to see me. I wanted to see him too. Real bad. But he is still with her. *long sigh*

They came back over yesterday. They brought steaks and we had a huge BBQ. He was there for Shelby's birthday party. I was surprised they came as early as they did given the fact that Debbie can't stand dogs. Kinda funny, she was subjected to 5 dogs. They all played with each other and didn't give the humans much attention. it was alot of fun and there are pics posted over at boo's blog.

My mom met Earl for the first time. I didn't realize that they had never met. After he hugged me goodbye and held my hand as he was walking away, she just looked at me with a sad look on her face. She had watched all day. She observed. She picked up on what everyone always picks up on. The chemistry. The comfort level. The natural way around each other.

"why is he with her? When is he gonna wake up and smell the coffee?"

I wish I knew. I wish I knew why things are the way they are. I wish I could quit it. Quit him but I can't. I'm not going to. I've tried. I stood a chance for a few weeks but then that went downhill. I still don't see how a person can stay with the wrong person when the right person is there in front of them. I know eventually it will come around. He will finally do what he has to do but I just don't know how long eventually is.

Mom stood there giving me a hug as her and Rog were leaving.

"He loves you, it's so plain to see. I don't know if it helps you to know that but it is painfully obvious how he feels about you"

I teared up. I already know that. But at least I know it isn't all in my head. It's not just wishful thinking.

We are in the middle of the "Storm of the Century". Gusting winds, lots of rain, major flooding. My boss went home early. She NEVER does that. I'm leaving in an hour or so too.