I'm doing ok

I'm still alive. It's been a long week. Not so bad though.

Dana and I are splitsville. We are going to try to remain friends. Not sure we can but at least we are trying. It's all pretty quiet and flowing smoothly at this point. Kathy and I have mostly patched up our differences. She has been a huge help through this whole process.

My brother is still living with me and he's still in crisis. His soon to be ex wife is being a total bitch. I really think she is a c**t but I don't say that word.

My friend Lee and her boyfriend Tim are on a precarious bubble. He really screwed up last weekend and I don't know if it can be repaired. She is my best friend in the whole wide world and has been for almost 20 years. My heart aches for her. I'm here for her. It's all I can do. Right down to taking a midnight ride in a snowstorm to pick her up from a dance because he left her there. What a putz. And who says "In Springtime a young man's thoughts turn to Love"? This Spring has been nothing but break-ups. Oh well.

Lowe's called me last night. My carpet is in!!!!!!! Next Friday I will get laid...ummm, errr...I mean my new carpet will get installed. I am excited. There I go again, getting excited over material things to fill the void.

I just finished my second box of Girl Scout cookies. Lemonade. Yummmmmy. Now my belly aches. Speaking of bellies, my muffin top is exploding over the top of my pants. I MUST lay off the cookies. And ice cream. And booze. And potatoes. And cheese. I hate getting older and being even more prone to weight gain.

My daughter's boyfriends started a new job two weeks ago. Selling meat. Yeah, he's been peddling his meat all over town. Suckered me into $200 worth. It's well worth it though. I have bought it before and liked it. Until I found out that they have been upping his quota everyday until it was impossible to meet the quota. They totally burned him out in 2 weeks so he quit. When he went to get his first last and only paycheck, they jipped him out of it. Said he didn't charge enough for certain boxes on certain dates. Poor kid. Ended up spending money (on gas) to have a job that refuses to pay him. Fuckers. Good learning experience though. I am pissed that he didn't get credit for the meat that I bought but I guess that is life. I gave him $50 to have in his pocket. He went back to work with his uncle (as a painter).

I have so much work ahead of me next weekend. I have to move three room's worth of furniture and remove the carpet on Sat. My mother and I are going to Boston on Sunday afternoon and staying until Monday afternoon to be with my grandmother for her eye surgery. This weekend is the 1 year anniversary of my cousin's death. I feel it. I feel him. I miss him. I just want to be with my family and veg out. It's not necessarily a fun weekend but it is a much needed weekend.

It will be a full year ago tomorrow since I cut my hair. I never did receive a thank you card from Locks of Love so I'm inclined to think the salon never sent my hair in. Fuckers. I'm not dwelling on it though. I'm leaving it in my mind that it was sent and made into a beautiful wig for a young lady and totally made her whole day. Yeah, that's what I'm thinking. I'm going to try to get some pics tonight to post with the ones from a year ago to show how quickly my hair grows. Lucky me that it does grow fast.

Have I said how much I love Shelby and what a saviour she is for me? Have I said how much joy she brings? Ok....I know I have but anyway in case you forgot I just told you again.

I have parent/teacher conferences on Thurs. It feels like this year is much better. I don't dread that trip to the school like years past. Heather will graduate in about 3 months and I am proud of how far she has come. I am selfishly glad that I get to see her walk across the stage and get her diploma. I am so happy to have that dream come true. I think it will be a dream come true for her too.

Howard Stern was hilarious this morning. He lost his freaking mind and totally blew up at Gary. He apologized after but boy was it great radio. Have I said how much I like my Sirius Satallite radio??

It stayed light out until almost 7:30 tonight. Boy do I love the longer days. I have been BBQ'ing every night. Except last night. Because I ran out of gas. My body ran out of gas early last night too. I was asleep by quarter to 8pm and didn't wake up until almost 5am. I have not slept that good for that long since........... hmmmm.....I don't think I have ever slept like that. At least I don't recall. I felt so good when I woke up. The chaos caught up with me, totally kicked my ass and left me with a peaceful easy feeling.