crazy voices

Nothing has really happened.

Mostly just my mind working double OT.
We've talked daily.
He tells me all the time how he feels.
He's making plans. We're making plans.

It's this damned timeframe. It is so deja vue. I can't help but think I'm going to be passed over again.

ANd I don't think I can last with Dana until Spring. It's too much. My mind is ready to explode.

I hate how I'm feeling right now. I feel so needy and vulnerable. I feel obsessive, checking my phone constantly. I'm feeling all the ways that drive me crazy about Dana.

Every song is Earl.
Every dream is Earl.
Every thought. Fleeting and otherwise.

I'm losing my mind. This is the closest I have been to where I want to be and I feel like I'm going to wreck it. My insanity is going to take over. Guess it's just my insecurity.

He truly has given me no reason other than dragging his feet to feel this way. The reason that is really bugging me is because he didn't drag his feet with the others. I wish he'd stop putting so much thought into it and put a little heart into it.

OMG.....the crazy voices are getting to me.