I'm still here and still mostly sane

Dana has been out of work almost 2 weeks now. This hasn't really bothered me too much because I know he'll get something soon. I haven't pressured him or bugged him or harped on him. He has a savings account and as long as he keeps up with the nornal household bills I couldn't care less. I know that he is pretty frugal and is not going to squander his savings. I know that he will take care of business.

What is bothering me though is that he has been out of work for 2 weeks and has done almost nothing around the house. He does some laundry and he has cooked dinner and loaded the dishwasher but he has done no yardwork at all. He has not touched the new shed that has to be finished. I can't figure it out. I ask what he as done all day and he says "job hunting and unemployment stuff". Um.....all of that is done on the puter. He's not driving to these places. So why is it taking 8-10 hours a day, every day?

He has always been a bit of a scorekeeper. If he does some work then I have to do work too. On Sunday we were finally using the edger to mark the circle around the pool that needs to be cleaned out and have landscaper cloth then white rocks laid down. I was also moving wood from the old firepit to the new firepit. I had told him that the rocks on the corners by the pool should be moved before he uses the edger. (He kicked up a couple of rocks by the flower bed and could have easily broken a window). It was 2 small places that needed the rocks removed. He edged the whole thing except those spots then came looking for me to find out if I was going to move the rocks? I said "I can" then he proceeded to stand there watching me use the spade to dig out the rocks. I finally got pissed and said I would appreciate him not standing there and WATCHING ME WORK. I was already mad that he came and got me instead of grabbing the spade and doing it himself so him standing there and waiting for me to prep his area just threw me over the edge.

He got the edging done but now the heavy work comes in. All the grass and rocks in the circle has to come out. He didn't even offer to start working on it. I asked him later on if he was going to work on it this week he said he didn't know if he'd get to it with all the job search stuff going on. OMFG....he could spend 2-3 hours in the morning on that then putter outside for 2-3 hours and still have 3-4 hours for a nap. ANd I would be so happy to come home and see progress on the pool project. But that doesn't seem like it will happen. He acts like job-hunting is his job. And I guess it is but still 8-10 hours a day? Every day?

I feel like lately all I can see are the things that drive me crazy. Lately all I see is the temperamental whiney baby. Lately all I think about is can I afford this place by myself? ANd how can I get to a place where I can?

**sigh**