Begging forgiveness

Forgive me Father for I have sinned.

I'm not Catholic but I have sinned.

I left an email for Dana the other night but he never got it so I ended up meeting with him.

It was good. Really. He seemed different. There was a different level of maturity. We didn't talk about getting back together or the past. We just talked about current events. We did reminisce about the good times. We both agreed it was a good meeting and we may want to see each other again. He also told me that if Kathy ever gives me any grief about anything ever again to let him know and he will handle it. I've blocked her email address anyways so I wouldn't expect to ever hear from her.

Anyways, I am taking things really slow and just enjoying the friendship for now. I told the kids and they were fine with things. They asked about Kathy and if I was worried that she would hurt me. I assured them that I was fine. I did tell Dana about that and the affect the last few weeks have had on me and them. He apologized. I know now that he wasn't the one threatening me. Once I ended things with him he was sad and brooded but never thought of breaking into my blog. He didn't even read my public blog. I don't know. I just didn't get any weird feelings about him. No hair standing up on the back of my neck or anything like that.

I just feel so lost and not sure where I fit in these days or who fits in my life. I did let Dana know that we were only friends and that is all. He doesn't have any right to get demanding or possessive of me. He really seemed different. He told me that he learned alot of lessons and I believe him.

Of course like usual I'm carrying secrets. I haven't told Dana yet that Earl and Debbie are moving in and I haven't told Earl that I went to dinner with Dana. I will be telling Dana about Earl the next time I see him though. No more hiding out. Either he accepts it or he doesn't. I'm not going to waste his time or mine.

Please don't be too mad at me. I am being careful and not jumping into anything.